The Change

I know it’s been a while since I last posted. There have been many changes in my life over the last 6 months and it’s only recently that I have regained the urge to blog. For a while, it was simply not having a computer, but at the first of the year, when I had a new one, I just didn’t have the urge to post anymore. I was having a difficult time with life in general, actually. Life was getting my goat. First, there is the ever growing anxiety I have about my child starting school this coming fall. I find myself procrastinating when I know I could do some things now, I put them off! Then, there was the ever growing anxiety about my boyfriend not having a job. We were barely scraping by with a LOT of help from relatives. But we still had good times. My boyfriend, my daughter and me. We stayed positive, got cheap treats and did a LOT of walking. Then there was the deep pain and anxiety over the fact that my father has cancer. Those 3 things were really weighing on me and I was not in a very good place. Then one day, I saw a youtube video that interested me. So I showed it to my boyfriend. The video intrigued us so much so, that we stayed up the entire night (Bailey was with her Father) watching related videos in a “chasing rabbit trails” type fashion. What we eventually began seeing was a large amount of satanism in film, music, politics and even seeming religious establishments. We couldn’t believe some of the actual proof we ended up finding on our own. After that night we talked non stop all day about it. That following night we began researching again. At some point, and I don’t remember what video, website, pdf scanned book or theory it was that made it click, but my boyfriend suddenly said to me “God is real. He is real. How do I get saved?” I told him what I personally believe, and what I believe we saw proof of all over the world. That you have to pray to God and ask Jesus to come into your heart. You have to ask for forgiveness of your sins, accept that Jesus died for you, that God created you and you have to accept the Holy Spirit into your heart to guide you. (John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son. That whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life.”) So, my boyfriend prayed for the first time in his life. Repeating after me, and accepting Jesus into his heart as his Savior. Amen. When he opened his eyes, he looked at me and said “I want to marry you, will you marry me?”, My answer, was yes, of course. We have been together 2 years, he is my little girl’s daddy, they have a bond and he is my best friend. After that, I began to pray. Now, unlike my boyfriend, I have prayed before. Many, many times. There was a point in my life, that I would describe as being “at the feet of my Father” on a daily basis. But after the murder of my goddaughter by her mother, I was angry at God and entered into a Godless lifestyle. Looking back, I see that God was with me through it all. That He was in fact there the whole time. Anyways, I prayed hard. I asked for forgiveness, I begged for acceptance, I prayed that He would please please love me again. After I finished I felt the Holy Spirit comforting me. I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. I began to see God EVERYWHERE! He revealed so much to me in so many awesome ways after that and I cannot wait to share them with everyone. I suppose all of it was really leading up to this blog. I can’t honestly say that I know exactly what this blog will be about, but when I post in it, I will be praying that God use me as a mouthpiece to show people HIS GLORY. Amen. The Lord will be my guide throughout the entire blog. I hope everyone who reads this will remain open minded and open hearted and I encourage you to pray that the Holy Spirit will guide you and reveal God’s truths personally. Not only will I post what God leads me to, but I will take prayer requests and share stories that I feel are uplifting or encouraging. Also, if anyone should have a prayer request, do not hesitate to email me at: WildMommyMC@yahoo.com . I will do my best to respond swiftly! Thank you everyone for your support and help throughout theses times. I hope this journey will help you in any way possible!

 

Have a blessed day, May God be with you,

Wild Mommy MC

Father God, make me humble and obedient. Father help me to only show YOUR glory and give YOU honor with everything I write. YHWH, please send the Holy Spirit to be with every reader, that they might see You and YOUR glory! Jeshua, You deserve the highest honor, for the sacrifice You made so that all may be saved, thank You for all You have done and will do. It’s in YOUR holy and precious name, YHWH, Jeshua, Holy Spirit, that I pray. Amen.